[Being a direct sequel to Queens, set an hour later; a third story from the same night will be posted sometime this weekend.]
On a prom night it
is easy for the police to be turned aside. I walk down side streets
with Charlie at my side and the police don't look at either of us;
she called up the god inside her earlier and it casts echoes in the
air around her still. They would notice, not knowing what they see: I
turn their gazes away and follow twinges in my knees, throbs in a
finger and odd lights that vanish the moment I see them until I reach
the source of the disturbances twisting the world.
In the last hour
I've found a key chair, two hockey cards and a car all from Outside,
each pulled into the world. None were tightly bound to their hosts;
each came apart at an application of cold will. I'm not sure how much
of the anger rolling through me is from Charlie and how much is me
now: I can see shadows twisting painfully as things lean on them from
the other side. The street lights all flicker indigo when they think
no one notices. The air tastes of burnt plastic and human hair and
the one neon sign we passes five minutes ago has guttered out and
died.
Things are pushing
in on the world. I push back, drawing energy out of the prom and
weaving it into the fraying of the world. Anyone with a fragment of
sensitivity at the prom is going to have horrible nightmares but it's
better than seeing them become real. I round one corner, another, and
find the focus because the air is dead-grey above a dumpster. Basic
green apartment model save for the homeless man balanced on the edge
of it who leaps up and dives into it without looking back at us.
"When you said
you wanted to find the person giving people artifacts from other
spaces, you didn't mention they'd be dumpster diving," Charlie
says, her calm thin and fragile. "That was an Olympic-quality
dive. Into a dumpster. In the middle of nowheresville."
"I know."
I look back. "Sit. Breathe."
"I'm breathing
just fine," she snarls, and the snarl pulls her back a little.
"Sorry," she says after that, her voice pale.
"It's okay.
Just breathe. Focus on deep breaths."
She does so three
times before meeting my gaze.
"I saw my
first spirit at thirteen. Spirits aren't the same as ghosts: they're
entities that occupy the world with us only somewhere to the side of
normal. Elementals, would-be tricksters, little gods. It was all
deadly shadows and white noise teeth and spent a week leaping out of
mirrors at me to scare me witless before I realized I could bind it."
"This is a
spirit?"
"No. A god,
but not the kind a god-eater can eat." She says nothing, eyes
narrowing. "As humans can become magicians, so can gods become
something more. Or less, or at least other. Gods are, after all, so
very hungry."
I turn back to the
dumpster; the god has left it without making a ripple in the world,
cunning as a shadow, something that looks like a brown wallet in his
left hand. His appearance has not changed, all sallow-cheeks, rough
beard, beer belly and receding hair. No one would even look twice at
him, wonder why he didn't smell at all and by them his eyes would
have charmed them into seeing someone else entire.
I shove the wallet
back where it came from with almost no effort.
The god stops.
Turns slow. "Magician. I am still of this world."
"Somewhat."
His gaze flicks
over to Charlie, eyes widening as he sees what she is. I take the
moment and stretch it, my shadow standing up behind the god.
I reach out, my
shadow's fingers finding mine, and snap the circle tight about the
god. Every street light for two blocks turns indigo and explodes. The
sounds of the prom rush over us like a wave, music and laughter
shuddering through the air. The god lets out a roar of fury and tears
his chest open. There are many things in it.
Just seeing them
hurts me. I can hear Charlie throwing up behind me in painful spasms.
"A god
should not hurt a god-eater." My thought is too deep, a
thing felt more than known as it wraps about the god. I don't bother
with words, discard language entirely. The binding is hundred songs
woven together, the banishing a thousand swords of light tearing into
the god. I strip away all parts of it that are still of the world and
banish the others.
A fingernail falls
off. My left eye won't open. A magician is magic. Magic is the
magician. I reach inside, pull hard and hold my shadow together,
letting it hold me together, and there is only air a moment later.
Air, a dumpster, Charlie staggering to her feet, air. Nothing else at
all.
The sounds of the
prom have retreated, like a wounded thing.
Charlie says my
name, her eyes wide.
"I'm okay."
My voice is slow, cracked. I'm hollow. Too hollow to be so full of
organs. Organs. I hold mine inside with will, binding my shadow into
myself. Hold myself together. The air tastes of sunlight, of magic,
of songs not sung and whispers of dreams I could become. I close my
eyes, force them away. "I think I need to sleep."
And thinking, I do.
Charlie's shout is distant but the pavement is cool and kind as stone
of the earth can be kind, and I sink into its embrace with a sigh.
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