I am running out of ways to-
to forget you
to forgive you
I am told
I should not do this
(which?)
I am dreaming in quicksand.
In my own head it is not dark enough
is not cold enough and there
is a falling – Oh God, there is –
you took so much when you left from us
(you? god? I don’t know which
There is this –. I –. I –.)
There is something I don’t have words for
can’t feel the seeing of, inseeing
or out.
Sometimes, rare, I visit your grave.
I don’t know know who I am crying for.
I want to tell them, who offer happy drugs,
how much I hate you, that I forget
your eyes without photos, that
I don’t know what I am crying for.
I can’t forget how selfish you were &
I am here. (People survive this.)
And you are not. (People survive this.)
And I cant see how I am empty
to be so full. I loved you, and you
took your life like I wasn’t enough
and all that is left, my child, is my hate.
then the desire is not to write.
- Hugh Prather
Friday, February 21, 2014
The idea wouldn't leave my head...
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I also did a second version of this that ended with:
ReplyDeleteand all that is left, O child, is my hat.
.. since I realized removing the ending e would change the poem so much :)