Love Lost

I wait now, surrounded by silence,

Looking for the pause between breaths;

Desperate to understand, in words left behind

Or half spoken: silent gestures

My only clues.

I listen for the spaces that lie between

Saying and meaning, motion and confusion.

Perhaps you thought I replaced meaning with words

When I said I loved you.

I should have seen the hints in your hesitancy,

The recalled touch, that too long stare.

You told me I knew you better than anyone:

It was because of that I didn't see as deeply as I could.

Even though it’s now too late

I'm listening to you and not to love

Or who I thought you were.